June 2010
Well that was fast
My best friend is in so much pain. And as her best friend, all i want to do is wrap my arms around her and let her transfer her tears onto my shoulder and her pain into my heart.
But…as Emma Reif, the immature girl who so many people dislike for being too annoying or insensitive of other’s feeling, I don’t know if i can handle it. I’m so scared I’ll say the wrong...
"At the touch of love everyone becomes a...
I had this whole beautiful paragraph layed out, about how i couldn’t beleive this is ACTUALLY happening, and how i swear it’s not just in my head. But then tumblr erased it.
Sooo i’ll settle with this: I’m ecstatic with my life. I have the BEST friends, and I had the best weekend. Pretty much my best guy friend EVER is visiting in exactly a week, and I can’t wait. ...
I definitely beleive in true love. Maybe I and...
singsweetmelodies:
Sometimes you just gotta cry yourself to sleep, then life is better.
Please stay.
Dave matthews is the most comforting sound i’ve heard in the past two hours.
[»You may not be the nicest or the most understanding, but i still want both of you.]
Pshh...
boys don’t have feelings….so it’s not like i’m hurting anyone, right?
“Did you notice that since you broke up with me, I won’t look at you, even...”
– sixbillionsecrets.com.
here’s a secret, I honestly cried, because i’m so pathetic and this explains that entire January and it makes me miss you so much.
hmm. soo. i'm still the same little girl.
my second attempt at writing this.
I scoured my room today with the intention of removing any traces of immaturity and messiness. goshh that so didn’t happen.
[»I wonder what my old babysitter would ahve thought if she knew i still keep and treasure that 4 inch plastic doll she got on her college trip to russia?]
[»I may be more bitter, gossipy, sarcastic, and susceptible to...
WAHH I JSUT WROTE A REALLY LONG THOUGHT OUT POST...
FACEBOOK: where who does and doesn't have a life...
I had a plan for my second semester as a sophomore
and everything went wrong.
I didn’t end up with the boy i wanted. My grades were random and definitely not expected. I didn’t make the right lacrosse team, or the right friends. Everything was completely unplanned and unexplainable.
&i’m so releived. So, so, so releived.
here’s to my summer plan being completely twisted in ways i could never have imagined.
“If you are sad, ask yourself why you are sad. Then pick up the phone and call...”
– No One Belongs Here More Than You, Miranda July (via julie911) (via quote-book)
(via singsweetmelodies)
It's such a weird feeling...
Like eating oreos and then taking a nap. something is just off.
I don’t really know where to start. Today, truly was the first day of the rest of my summer. (this weekend doesn’t really count at all, nights were i get < 5 hours of sleep aren’t really summer.)
Today, i started volunteering at the hospital in cardiac rehab. Which at first impression, just looks like a gym...
“So instead of drowning yourself, you’re gonna write a sad poem in your...”
– sassy gay friend - hamlet
your smile fades in the summer
I keep dreaming about you.
And it’s driving me absolutely up the wall. Because i can honestly say i hate you more than….
—the jewish poplutation hates hitler
—tom hates jerry
—ants hate magnifying glasses
—radical christians hate gays
—americans hate 9-11
—hair hates humidity
—dogs hate cats
—cats hate dogs
—republicans...
"This is more than just romance, it's an endless...
I’m just going to breathe, sleep, and forget about the little things.
It’s the little things that make or break us, you know :\
Today's reason for being grumpy: so i was taking a...
Thursday I don't care about you
I don’t understand boys. at all.
Why can’t they all be complete jerks that we can just completely disregard, instead of have flashes of sweetness and smiles? Why do they act like psychoticly awkward perves, even when they’re in the company of ladies? Why do they light up my life one day, and act like just another loser the next?
I ESPECIALLY hate that. I NEED consistancy. You...
Well, it's what my parents want... →
So starstruck
baby cause you blow my heart up.
Don’t pay attention to anything i say, in a week i might just take it all back.
But oh my goodnessssss i’m so in love. He’s just so perfect. Just the fact that he’s trying to get to know me and wants us to be friends makes my heart leap, because never, ever have i EVER deemed myself worthy of even talking to him.
HAHA. but yeah. all my...
Lets go shopping... →
Smiley and happy :) thank god for sweet boys.
The winner and their [cheesy] poem
My box no longer smells so sweet,
there’s an odor of dead flowers, and sweaty boy feet
because of your idea.
Now sparkly things which mesmorize
and bring back those memories i fantasize,
linger in that box.
Thank you for caring, thank you for reading,
Thank you for listening when my heart would be bleeding,
Although it’s been a year, i’ll never forget
my best friend...
“When I saw you over there
I didn’t mean to stare
But my mind was...”
– hannah montana song. the BEST hannah montana song.
mightyroar-deactivated20121120 asked: Haha, have you figured out who I am, or are you just following me because I followed you?
Things i hated today:
When you’re walking home and someone is going to appolegize to you for being a jackass but there are a bunch of douchebag boys nearby so he never gets the chance…
When i’m being delusional.
Sunburns.
Things I loved today:
Tiedye
knockoff wegmans-brand oreos.
People that totally agree with me.
Not my best day, but certainly not my worst.
I've forgotten the pattern.
The pattern, you ask? it’s simple:
Live, regret, forget, forgive.
I’m in the forgiving stage, currently, so get ready for a wild and bad decision-making summer.
[»lalalala i’m so CURIOUS. too curious. smack me when it becomes obsessiveness.]
The most addictive and heartbreaking website i've... →
In The Movies: You’re in love with him but he doesn’t know this and he already has a whole list of non-exclusive girlfriends. So you construct an elaborate plan to win him over. It involves buying a sexy dress, getting a make-over, and staying back late after a house party to talk to him. You get him to open up about himself and reveal his vulnerable side and he falls for you, finally noticing...
a contest, because i have nothing to say that will...
This is The Box. (yes, it is sitting on my pillow)
My mom gave me this box. It smells like cinnamon and tea and has six spaces that could be used to hold multiple little things.
Now it’s up to you, my creative bloggers, to think of something unique and practical which i could keep in this box. The winner will get a very cheesey poem written about them. You don’t have to follow me...
A little secret: I love reading the words "I'm...
I matter?
something i read just made me think I do. :)
Thanks for that, stranger. I like your writing, your opinions, and your voice a whole lot. I think we have more in common than i ever thought.
[Today was sooo great, which is refreshing compared to the usual crap that that i complain about in an over-dramatic and whiney fashion.]
Trigonometric identities can go die. really.
NO SLEEP TONIGHT.
I’ve got caffeine and a jar of advil. My old nervous habits; the lip sucking and the nail biting, are returning for tonight. Who knew i had two projects and a math test tomorrow? I sure didn’t!
attention: sleep is for the WEAK
i'm just too happy right now
..which means there’s nothing to write about. haha.
oh, there was one thing that was really bugging me, actually…
If you’ve talked to me lately, i’ve been bashing this one girl a lot lately. For no reason. And i feel absolutely awful. I’ve always been opposed to hating someone for no reason, or hating someone because they have someone you want….but damn,...
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the Love list
Things that really make me smile right now. Because i really need to think about them.
love that i’m cutting off all my hair tomorrow. snip snip snip. it’ll be the biggest breath of fresh air i’ve had in months, i can just tell.
love that i’m not causing anyone pain at the moment.
love that i just saw avatar, and, well, it was fantastic. maybe i’m only thinking...
summer is supposed to mean things are better.
melisssaaaa:
chrisstine:
(via tobenaked)
What's your secret?: 16789.) I think we could've... →
I still think that. A lot of people wanted us together. Were you just too shy or did you not like me? Now that you’re moving, I’m probably going to be stuck wondering for the rest of my life if we could’ve worked out. Why didn’t you make a move? I waited everyday to see if you would say something. I hope that you regret not speaking up when you had the chance. Maybe then you would’ve realized...
ahh. don’t you hate it when your friends drift apart, and make new friends that are apparently 1000x cooler than you are….
i hate that.
Day Eight: a photo i took
This is why we’re related.
What a topsy turvy day
it started with a boom dadadadada boom dada dada and ended with some chinese food and red carnations.
Throw in a terrible volleyball game, hours at the nurse, and the biggest headache of my life and i’ve got myself a memory.
I’m that little girl from first grade again, who breaks down crying when the boy sitting next to me called my pig drawing “ugly.”
Fuck with my heart, shame on you. Fuck with my friends’ hearts, not cool.
But fuck with my words, my art, my creations, and shit i’ll tear you to pieces. Nobody messes with those.
Day Eight: a photo that makes you angry/sad.
Everything i wanted to put was honestly just too personal. And i don’t feel like roaming the internet looking for sad pictures.
in bigger news… BIPOLAR BOY STRIKES AGAIN! dun dun dun dunnnnnnn
happy awards
lalala. a little bit of stress. not too bad though, i’ve had a great day.
I would first like to thank Jillian, who drove me to starbucks where i had probably the best chai tea latte in my life. thanks jill!
but another award goes must go to Zach Hesson, who risked his dignity and his health to ninja kick a volleyball. however badly he did fail, his actions were still valiant. thank you...
